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Category Archives: Bereavement
Five Years…
Today marks the fifth anniversary of Jane’s death. Five years to come to terms with the worst thing to ever happen in my life. Over the last five years I’ve learned to look at life in a more positive way. … Continue reading
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Making the most of it…
It’s only another day I keep telling myself but the impact of the anniversary of her death always hits me harder than I expect. On a wet Sunday morning I went to the hospice garden at Louth and sat thinking … Continue reading
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Three Years On
Today marks the third anniversary of Jane’s death (1,096 days). That day will be etched into my memory forever however the other 16,425 days we spent together are also there and will never be forgotten. No matter how long I … Continue reading
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Over Thinking and the Art of Solitude
After a lengthy internal struggle I’ve taken a step back from my relationship with Mary. I don’t intend to explain the reasons here and it was a very upsetting time. We are going to try to maintain a friendship so … Continue reading
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Hospice Garden
The hospice garden dedicated to Jane on a dull January day. There were birds in the silver birches and the trees are doing well always remembering they have Jane’s ashes in the roots to give them that added zest for … Continue reading
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Two Years Ago…
Two years ago today Jane died, the world became a lesser place and my world fell apart completely. Since that day I’ve slowly built a new life, brick by brick, tear by tear, until I can face each day with … Continue reading
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The Festive Season
As we head into the festive season and there is so much happiness around I find myself thinking back two years to when Jane went into St Barnabas Hospice. I have come a long way since then and recognise that … Continue reading
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Another Phase
Several people have mentioned that the frequency of my posts has declined over the past month or two and the reason for this is that my life has entered a new phase. Those who have followed me through my grief … Continue reading
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A Selfless Life?
It’s a strange life when one can do as one likes when one feels like it. It’s a double edged sword; on the one hand it is total freedom and on the other it offers the question “free to do … Continue reading
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Time Travelling
Don’t worry I’m not going to expound on the physical impossibility of time travel but let’s face it, if it was possible someone would have come back and told us. The title was suggested because I’ve just watched the Time … Continue reading
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Another Goodbye
On the first anniversary of Jane’s death I arranged to take her ashes to the memorial garden at Louth Hospice accompanied by Nick and Val & Dave and Lucie. I scattered her ashes around the three tall silver birch trees … Continue reading
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York Gig and More…
Another first on my new journey of life – a trip to York to see KT Tunstall at York Barbican. The last time I saw KT was with Jane and so it was going to be “interesting”. I was also staying … Continue reading
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Goodbye Once More…
Today Val came in and helped me to pack up Jane’s clothes and take them to the hospice charity shop. I planned some time ago that I would be ready to do this in November but the thought of doing … Continue reading
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Disconnected Musings…
First let’s have some photos from the garden… The potting shed has been swept and tidied ready for next season. I’ve ripped out the courgettes; pulled out the last of the lettuces,; dug up the carrots which were too small … Continue reading
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Sweet Shop…
Sometimes I feel like a child in a sweet shop. All these “goodies” out there and there is a risk I could make too many decisions too soon. A bit like eating too many sweets and regretting it later. During … Continue reading
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Louth Hospice Garden Opening
Today was the official opening of Caitlin’s Tatton Park Garden at Louth Hospice. The garden is an incredible memorial to Jane’s life and the work the hospice does for those with terminal illness and their families. There was a reception and … Continue reading
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Analysis Paralysis
Many people have told me that I over analyse and over plan. I agree I do and it frustrates me that I cannot stop myself – analysis paralysis is where I am a lot of the time. I’ve been reminded recently … Continue reading
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Equilibrium Ramblings.
Am I a slow learner? Possibly but there’s more to intelligence than mental capacity, there’s also emotional intelligence and maybe I’m a bit lacking there because it has taken me nearly eight months to learn that to maintain equilibrium I … Continue reading
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Out of the Darkness
Today I managed to get through the day without shedding a single tear so I think the wave of grief I experienced for much of the weekend has moved on for the time being. The garden continues to produce lettuce, … Continue reading
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Hospice Garden Complete
Caitlin’s garden has now been completed at St Barnabas, Louth. Special thanks must go to Nick who has spent many days laying the porcelain tiles in very difficult circumstances and I feel certain that without his input it would never … Continue reading
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