The garden is just fantastic. And it is not surprising that it is so hard for you when everything you are doing is related to keeping Jane's memory alive. The garden and the chairs and the visit to the hospice itself is bound to take your focus there. And the blog...well if it's written down it can be revisited. It's a story isn't it.  Maybe just maybe ,now that something so huge is complete your focus can be channelled somewhere just for you. Find yourself Steve. You will x