Hi Steve, I am pleased you are giving the counselling a go, you have nothing to lose by doing so and may have something to gain.  I have been on both sides, having studied counselling and having received it.  In my case it was very successful, it unlocked delayed grief, 20 years delayed!   I didn't have any aspirations, just went with the flow, but as has been said already, it probably isn't for everyone.

You certainly mean to keep fit with your swimming don't you, will you get back to  cycling too in the near future?   I know it was very much Jane's thing, but if I remember correctly you both did the Cynthia Spencer run one year didn't you?  We used to cycle, but neither of us were very good so we gave it up and now take walks instead.

I hope you are giving yourself time to relax in between these long bursts of energy you are expending, but I guess you know your own limitations.  Also, good luck with  bureaucracy, it's bad enough here but in Italy where Susan lives it is a nightmare!