<img class="alignright wp-image-2951 size-thumbnail" src="http://pigyard.com/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2016/01/sympathy-cardsjan16-200x150.jpg" alt="sympathy-cards(jan16)" width="200" height="150" />Well, I'm getting better. Or at least that is until someone asks "how are you doing" and then I struggle. Or when I'm reading the sympathy cards - they just dissolve me - so many people expressing their love and affection for Jane. I have spent and continue to spend so much of my time thinking about this huge void in my life that I haven't really thought about me. And before anyone asks - I'm eating properly and last night I had a reasonable night's sleep, at least the best for many weeks but then as someone pointed out I'm probably just tired.

My family of friends who also happen to be our, no my, next door neighbours have been supremely supportive and continue to be so. Tomorrow (Thursday) they're taking me to Northampton to meet the celebrant so we can discuss the format of the funeral (crematorium and Walnut Tree), what will be said when and where, the music, etc. Tomorrow is also when Jane travels down to rest at the Kingsthorpe Co-op funeral directors so we're even synchronised in our travel arrangements.

Of course all the legal necessities have to be dealt with and it gives me an opportunity to get angry. To get probate I have to fill in several forms one of which is an Inheritance Tax Form although as sole beneficiary and husband I won't have to pay the tax but you still have to fill in the form. To help you complete the form there is a 31 page guidance note and to be honest I need to a guidance note to understand the guidance note if you get my drift. Needless to say I've arranged to see a solicitor next week - one less thing to worry about.