Thanks Kath. As I've mentioned previously I'm not expecting a magic wand however it is useful as a measure of my sanity. It also gives me an outlet. The counsellor gave me the impression she thought I was doing the right things and believes I understand grief quite well, largely thanks to the advice I've received from friends - so thanks to everyone who has helped me with the continuing process of picking up the pieces of my life.
Yes, Jane and I did the Cycle4Cynthia sponsored cycle together every year apart from when she damaged her knee. It was the one time we entered for the 50 mile route and it poured with rain for the last 20 miles. I arrived back cold and wet but as always Jane was there to cheer me in - she would have preferred to do it herself. Even when she was first diagnosed she did the London to Brighton cycle ride. I will start cycling again when the weather perks up a bit - I won't go out in the cold, wind or rain. There are some really lovely, quiet cycles around here and you can choose between hills (Wolds) or flat.
Hopefully the bureaucracy is nearly complete as I've emailed all of the information to the solicitor and I can see no reason why she cannot apply for probate.
Steve xx