I think you are making a wise decision to take a step back, after having such a wonderful wife and such a happy life together, it would be difficult to find another to fill such a huge space, I tried after John died, but no one could fill his shoes, I have now been on my own for ten years and I am quite happy with my solitude, I have good friends and family, they give me all I need. I hope you find solace. Good luck
Christy