<img class="alignleft size-medium wp-image-3133" src="http://pigyard.com/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2016/02/Janes-mum-rspb-bookjan16-300x225.jpg" alt="Jane's-mum-rspb-book(jan16)" width="300" height="225" />Yesterday I travelled down to RSPB Sandy in Bedfordshire with Ruth, Jane's sister, to meet up with Richard, Jane's brother, to scatter her mum's ashes.

Jane's mum, Peggy, died in November but Jane wasn't well enough to go to the funeral so it was suggested we all meet up at Sandy to scatter her ashes. It meant I could pass Ruth on to Richard where she will spend the next week before heading back to Tasmania.

My two-hour drive back was lonely, normally Jane and I would be travelling together and an empty passenger seat was a constant reminder, as if I needed a reminder, of her absence. Last night the "family" came round for a fish and chip supper which was a very pleasant evening.

Today was the start of my new life and the key to retaining my sanity is to keep busy. It doesn't work every minute of the day but whenever I go into meltdown I find I need to let it happen for a while then collect myself together and get on with something, anything.