<a href="http://pigyard.com/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2016/04/garden-bluebellsapr16.jpg"><img class="size-medium wp-image-3307 alignright" src="http://pigyard.com/wordpress/wp-content/uploads/2016/04/garden-bluebellsapr16-300x225.jpg" alt="garden-bluebells(apr16)" width="300" height="225" /></a>Sometimes the garden can be overwhelming and at the same time beautiful. After a week away I had to sort out the greenhouse, cut the lawns and prepare a vegetable bed for the carrots and parsnips. And then I looked across Jane's lovely flower beds and was dismayed by the number of weeds - nettles, dandelions and cow parsley. The garden used to be a field two years ago and so all kinds of weeds find their way through and just keep coming, time and time again. I did have a moment when I felt quite depressed (drowning not waving) and the situation seemed hopeless. How can I keep the garden in good shape, the house clean, ironing, me fed and retain my sanity? The answer is simple to realise but less easy to accept - I just need to do what I can, when I can and eventually it will all get done at which point I will start all over again. Previously there was two of us doing all the tasks around the house and Jane with all of her energy did two-thirds of the effort so I'm having to "up my game".

Yesterday I spent the day in Lincoln with appointments at the solicitors and having an eye test. It seems I will finally get probate in the next two weeks and my eyes haven't changed in the last three years. For me the real challenge is not conducting "business" but in the times in-between. To many it might seem strange but I don't feel comfortable going into a cafe on my own or having lunch alone because Jane and I did everything together. I survived morning coffee and lunch for one. At the end of the day I felt happier and more confident that I can survive on my own. Another visit to the counsellor tomorrow - interesting times...